*Continuance of “My Story” starting with Blog #1: When your life flashes before your eyes in a flood gate of memories…
JE October 26th, 2015
Detoxing! My body is really and truly exhausted, Papa. Help me to hang in here and get all this toxic junk out! To be FREE and truly begin to heal again, to have energy and feel good. Not to mention have my own BM’s again. I look forward to those days, whenever they may be. My body knows when it needs to detoxify and I’m listening and abiding, Papa God.
In the blog Essentials! I’d stated that something interesting was going to be happening in the near future. Well, now’s the time!
During the course of the next month something new was happening! The left side pain had improved! The burning hot “fire like feeling spot” was DROPPING! Boom! The first time I felt the “dropping sensation” was when I was lying in bed on my left side. It felt like something dropped inside my abdomen, going in the direction of my thighs. I didn’t know what was happening, but I took notice to it! The same dropping sensation happened again the next night. The thought, I bet this burning spot(the cancer) is beginning to fall apart, went flying through my mind. The dropping happened once yet again before I spoke with Dr. Jack in November of 2015.
So what were the days like, and symptoms I had, at this point in time?
I still had “really bad days”, but they weren’t as often or nearly as severe as they’d used to be. If I had to compare the bad days to the years prior to this, they didn’t even compare. Bad days now consisted of headaches, severe low back pain, nausea, dizziness(sometimes), hot sweats, left side and upper abdominal pain(hot and achy), bloating(sometimes), constipation(which enemas always helped with), low or sometimes no energy and overall weakness.
A “normal” day at this time consisted of some or all of these symptoms: low back pain(always present to some degree like it had been for the last 3 years although, not as severe), maybe a headache, left side abdominal and upper abdomen pain(mostly a dull ache, but could be a dull burning sensation), and physically tired/fatigued. Activity, work, and heavy detoxing played a role in being fatigued. The intensity from all of the detoxing my body was doing exhausted my energy. I would get into bed at night feeling utterly worn out, unable to go to sleep because my body was so weary but unable to “relax”. My head could pound with tremendous headaches somedays and into the nights. The left side pain was 3-D, and try as I might I could never access deep enough into my body to reach that spot to bring any kind of relief. I’d roll a lot while in bed because of the left side pain. When awakening in the morning, I’d feel like I had hardly slept at all. Sleep wasn’t always like that though. I had nights that I DID slept well. I always slept well after my monthly massage! Thanks Laurie!
I averaged 6-8 hours of sleep(which for a young adult is okay, but when a person is sick, that’s not ideal), but those few select days that I slept really well I could get 9-10 hours. Those were SO wonderful, to wake up in the morning feeling like I had truly slept deep! I felt rejuvenated, kind of. My body was sore(all over) from the intensity of detoxing and was truly exhausted. I had been detoxing heavily since June 2015 and it now was almost mid-November, almost 5 whole months.
Slowly but surely I was seeing and feeling healing results! Each day was filled with healing. There were a variety of different healing “helps” I’d do. Some of the methods included: Coffee enemas, castor oil packs(for liver cleansing), detox baths, exercise, quiet time, essential oils, looking at all realms of healing(physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually), eating and drinking healing foods/spices/herbs and herbal teas/etc. and lots of self-care! I didn’t have extra time to do anything else but to help myself. I needed to focus on healing, and that took all the time and energy I had while still doing my job of running my own business. It was a process, juggling everything, but I enjoyed it none-the-less. I was finding the right balance in it all, and I had people who had my back when I needed extra help in all areas of life. Special thanks to my family. Also, to those few select individuals that knew the true state of my health, who were always there for me/us.
Healing takes time. But I WAS healing, from the inside out. I was truly letting the healing begin, in BIG steps. And, with bigger steps to come!