Special Memories

*Continuance of “My Story” starting with Blog #1: When your life flashes before your eyes in a flood gate of memories…

Picked up from the blog (Results Revealed).

Dr. Jack and I were silent for a brief time, as if soaking in the depth of all this past year (and for me year’s) had encompassed.  I’d gone through the hard work of detoxifying my body, giving it what was needed to fight this long battle with a lot of help from many individuals.  Various organs health were reversed by detoxification.  I’d truly conquered Pancreatic Cancer, the deadliest cancer, with MANY helps!  It was done in an alternative form of healing that is often looked down upon by the medical community and at times the general public, disregarded as quackery and scoffed at as my chiropractor had put it so clearly, “You’ve done what most people would think is impossible, or plain refuse to do.”

Thoughts continued racing through my mind, of the last six years, while on the phone with Dr. J.  I looked up into the clouds and whispered in the inner most depths of my heart, Thank you, Papa.”

I said, “Thank you, Dr. Jack,” trying to re-focus on our conversation, having just drifted off in my own thoughts.

“You’re welcome, Kelly.  I’m going to finish working on your protocol for this month and we’ll get the supplements sent out to you ASAP.” Dr. J said warmly.  We scheduled another appointment and said our goodbyes.  Then Dr. J said, “Kelly, you’ve done such a good job!  You have gone through A LOT of hard work.  You have made so much progress and I’m so very happy for you!”

My throat felt thick and my eyes were tear filled.  I blinked the tears away and said, my voice lurking through the thickness, “Dr. Jack, thank you so much for all of your help.”  My voice cracked.  My words seemed so small compared to how thankful I truly was for his help.

“Oh Kelly, you are so welcome.  You continue to be well and we’ll talk again in a month. Bye-bye.”

Dr. Jack’s famous “bye-bye” always made me smile.  He ALWAYS ended our phone consults with that.  My heart felt like it was going to burst from the joy as I wiped the tears from my eyes.  I turned and opened the screen door, stepping into the house again, and Mom looked deep into my eyes, standing in the middle of the kitchen.  Tears had filled in Mom’s eyes and without hesitation I reached out and we engulfed each other in a hug.  We shared a deep embrace, taking in another very special moment.

“It’s okay Mama.  I’m all better.” I choked out as tears and relief of the “worst being over” erupted from both of us.  These words, “I’m all better” were the words any Mama would love to hear.  For years I’d wondered what this moment would be like.  Now, finally it had happened, coming to fruition, on the morning of September 28, 2016 at 9:30a.m.  I didn’t know what to think or really how to feel.  The one thing I did know was that God had truly made a way for me and kept me in the palm of his hand every single step of the way.  Thank you, Papa. I’m eternally grateful, were the words that were formed, passing from my lips.  I love you and trust you.

“One more year” Dr. Jack had said it would take to get me to healthy and back to optimal health.  I was eager to continue to feel better and better.  Truthfully, I didn’t even know what that all encompassed, but I was ready for more healing to take place.

That past month of September 2016, I experienced the realness of a “normal” life in many senses.  Not only having bowel movements on my own, but being able to do activities with friends.  I tried a few new foods.  I laughed, loved, and lived life to its fullest.  I was lighter in heart and more at ease than ever.  Papa had not only healed me physically, he healed me mentally, emotionally and spiritually throughout that whole health journey, and was continuing to do so.  My life is in your hands, I prayed in my heart.

JE October 6th, 2016

Times are changing.  I feel the change.  Not just in my health, but for the future plans you have in store for me.  I have NO doubt(s) in my mind about the future and all you have in store for me.  I know you are in control; everything happens in your perfect timing.  I trust you, Papa God.  My life is in your hands.  Continue to give me peace, patience, joy, love, healing, guidance, and direction.  I know you are doing these things and I am at total peace. Papa, you are so good, ALL the time.  You are beyond amazing.

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As you well know from reading, my Mom was with my every step of the way on this journey.  It wasn’t easy for either of us, as I’ve talked about before.  But in the moment when I said the words, “It’s okay,  Mama.  I’m all better!”  the full reality of all those years of complete vulnerability shared together were raw with emotion.  To this day, it still brings happy tears to my eyes and a chill down my spine when I remember that day.

Looking back today, I won’t lie, I’m still in awe of how God made absolute beauty out of ashes in my health.  What some people could view as terrible, horrendous, and hellish (yes, I DO agree it was hellish), I literally choose not to LOOK at it that way.  There’s something to be said about looking at the reality of our lives and our situations.  I did. But there’s also something to be said about positive thinking.  I’m not saying being optimistic is going to fix a situation, but it helps to bring a different perspective and for me, to be grateful all the more for anything and everything.  No matter how awful or well I felt during my journey, I tried to not only stay positive, but most importantly for me, to be in constant communication with my Papa God.

My Papa God honestly is my very best friend as I’ve stated before.  There’s NO way I could have gone through this journey without him in my life, nor my life in general.  As I shared in the blog A New Heart that’s when and how I came to know my Papa in a special way.  I’m not pushing my faith on you, nor am I trying to convince you to believe what I believe.  I’m simply sharing the truth of my reality.

My Papa God was and is my CONSTANT solid rock.  Truthfully, my Papa God blows my mind with his undying love for each and everyone of us.  No matter what we’ve done in our lives, no matter the choices we’ve made, will make, no matter the place(s) we are at in our lives, he NEVER leaves us or forsakes us.  We can ALWAYS turn to him.  Papa delights in our constant relationship with him, and speaking for myself I do delight in constant relationship with him too. That’s not to say at times I don’t get frustrated and want answers NOW.  Interesting thing is, those moments of the unknown, of my putting my trust in him, that’s where our relationship blossoms ten-fold.  Maybe you’ve experienced this too, maybe not.  Again, I’m not trying to push my faith on you.  Point is, Papa delights in EACH and EVERY one of us.  It’s not my job to convince you, but I truly want you to know that he delights IN YOU.

 

 

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