SOON is our book release, Thursday, September 8, 2022. We are so excited to get our book into your hands! The book is Kelly’s seven-year all-natural health journey, from age 18-25: “Your Life Your Choice Let the Healing Begin A JOURNEY OF DIS-EASE TO EASE Healing Holistically of Pancreatic Cancer”
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Here is our last book (chapter) reveal to perk your interest and get you online to order our book if you haven’t done so yet!
There are simply no human words to explain WHY God allows suffering in this life, but I have some ideas that were impressed upon me years ago that I can see as possibilities as to WHY God allows suffering. What we see with human eyes is surly a tiny speck compared to what He sees in even one of our circumstances, be it good, bad, or otherwise. I trust that God knows best when He allows suffering, and when He gives and takes away.
Concerning Kelly’s state of health, especially during the fall of 2014 into the summer of 2015, we acted upon our faith during the entire process from illness (2010) to clean bill of health (2017). What did act upon our faith look like? Lots of prayers, and unwavering trust—faith. Sometimes, it was a cry for “help”. Other times, praises in the storms, or tears knowing He was listening to our hearts breaking and us knowing He was in complete control. Some days we would ask for Him to reveal Himself in some way that we would know His hand was working in the details. But most often, we were asking for His healing touch to deliver Kelly out of this painful health situation, and for His will to be done, meaning: not praying for my will, Kelly’s, Darren’s, or Troy’s will, nor any human being’s will for Kelly, just His will, whatever that might be in this awful chronic health situation. There was way too much suffering on Kelly’s part, daily.
Healing comes in multiple forms, through medicine being one. Kelly was using “food as medicine” and nutritional supplements from her health practitioners as optimal nutritional aids. Both food and supplements were medicinal. She was adamant about not taking prescription medications, so our standard American medical doctoring system for healing was out of the picture and already in some other country at this point.
Doctoring is another avenue of healing. Doctor means “teacher”. Many people think Dr. means “healer”, but that is just not so, although God does heal THROUGH people’s knowledge and guidance. We were learning from various doctors up to this point, through both alternative doctors on health summits online, and those that she was working with. Putting into action what we were learning was not getting to the deeper issue going on concerning the pain she experienced daily, but we believed that what she was doing thus far WAS helping heal her intestinal permeability–leaky gut.
Healing also comes through death. When a loved one is suffering on a daily basis, it’s trying to know how to help them. To just be with Kelly and be silent was welcomed, I think. Hearing Kelly’s thoughts in her journal entries as I’ve combed through these chapters here, she writes about being at peace–going home to Papa God, was not shocking to me. She and I are very open in our communication, being bluntly honest in our conversations and discussions on topics. We’d had that discussion on death. I knew where she was at, or should I say I trusted her where she was at. I knew she was depressed. I TRUSTED her to be honest with me, which she has been since her change of heart not so very long ago. One thing about Kelly, and I guess about myself too, is she despises being lied to. Once caught in a lie, her respect for a person plumets—like a fishing line going down with sinker on end leading. Honesty is always the best policy with us. Even if we don’t agree, being honest is vital in having integrity. Let’s just say, if a person is brave enough to be honest in telling the truth, even if we don’t agree what they are saying, they get our respect for BEING BRAVE and HONEST!
During this particular time of doctoring, early 2014 into 2015, I too had come to terms with the real possibility that Papa God, as Kelly calls Him, may take my baby from this life. God gives. God takes away. I know and believe this from reading the Christian Bible and because of how He speaks to me in daily life. Dying doesn’t scare me. I have a lot of peace about death, trusting and believing it’s the end of life here as we know it, but a beginning to eternity with our Savior… and a large clan of family. I knew that if Kelly were to pass on, that I would be with her in eternity. That gives me great comfort and peace of mind. Thankfully, my husband and I haven’t experienced the death of a child, putting our faith to an immeasurably difficult test as other people we know who have lost a child. I believe “loss” is a grief that never goes away, but changes as one goes through the rest of their life. The mourning may pass, but the heart that has lost a great loved one will forever hold the grief of missing their loved one when they think of them. That grief can change over time, allowing the heart to expand on memories without the mourning, but still feeling loss with perhaps a smidgen of gratitude for having had the person in their life for such a time as they had them. Maybe I think too much, but those as some of my beliefs on death and loss.
I fully believed we were doing the best we could in finding help and searching for help and answers with Kelly. We were seeking God’s direction for who to reach out to for alternative helps. I was present at most all of her appointments–discussions with doctors. I talked with her daily about her symptoms or whatever she wanted to talk about, supporting her however I could. My role was challenging during jacked-up pain episodes while she was detoxing, she having die-off effects–toxins needing to be eliminated from her body. I couldn’t do a single physical “help” at these times. But I could pray. And I did.
Since I was the closest person in Kelly’s life, I knew that my daughter, being strong-willed and determined to follow through with her choices, was not going to give up the fight for her life. Anyone could’ve asked me, “Why didn’t you just take her to the ER?’ Or, “Why don’t you make an appointment with a medical doctor?” And, “You knew she was depressed. She could’ve taken her own life! Had you thought of that?” Believe me, I did want to take her somewhere, especially at crisis times. And, yes, I had thought of all the possibilities of what could had happened. During those times my heart became anxious FOR her. I’d panic in my mind with thoughts of will she make it through this one, what if, and what will people think if …? But then, I’d be reminded of a scriptural promise and simply gain back peace of mind, and ask God to do His will… and making it known to us would be much appreciated.
Was Kelly reckless in her choice to not go to a medical doctor? It all depends on what a person believes is right. I know what it is like to be depressed. I know what it’s like to be depressed and NOT go to a medical doctor for help. I also know that when a person is depressed that they have to want to have change in their life in order for change to happen, and then act on making any change happen. I know that for me, I had to make that same choice to want to find answers to change my mental and physical health back in 2002 through to this day. That being said, I understood where she was at and I knew the possibility of deliverance. I was giving Kelly that same respect to want change and make decisions for herself. When she asked for any kind of help from us, we were there for her, to listen, give advice, to listen more, and give her room to grow in her choices.
As a parent of an adult child living in our home making her own choices, we were leaving the results of those healthcare choices in God’s hands, doing all we could to make Kelly’s life as good as it could be, but not imposing our will on her. Reckless? Or trusting? Honestly, as hard as it was to stand by and respect her choices, we trusted that God would act for healing on Kelly’s behalf, whatever that looked like day to day, stringing out into years.
Many nights I awoke with a strong urge to pray for Kelly during the 2014-2015 season of induced detoxing. I’d stayed lying in bed, making my requests known to God. Sometimes I’d have a sense that Kelly was not going to make it through the night. I’d stay awake for hours, sometimes going to her room to make sure she was still with us. Her breathing was so shallow I’d bend right over her, awkwardly with my head next to hers, feeling her breath on my ear. I recall three specific nights waking up IN prayer, having an undoubtable urgency in my heart to lay hands on her and pray. So, I would. Going downstairs to her room, listening for her shallow breaths, I’d put my hands on her back while kneeling next to her, praying, each time ending in “…but Thy will be done, not mine”. And I meant it. His will, not mine. It was His choice to heal her how He saw fit. I’d laid her at the foot of the cross.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving let your requests be make known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will
guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
There will be those who read this who may say I’m “crazy, negligent, gullible or fool-hearted”. I’m pretty okay with that at this point in my life. If anyone said that to my face, it wouldn’t be the first or the last time I heard it. Faith is trusting the outcomes to God, having done your part in faith to the best of your ability, then leaving the results to Him. I was at peace with what He would do in Kelly’s health situation. That doesn’t mean it was an easy thing to do, or that I never panicked. There were battles in my mind, as you can imagine. Words will just not convey my heart, in this, to you. Maybe the song “Blessings” will. May I suggest the reader do an internet search and listen to the song, “Blessings”, by Laura Story. The song is truly a blessing.
Sometime before the worst-of-worst times in Kelly’s health battle, she made the decision during a discussion I had with her privately, to not openly discuss her health with people outside of her inner circle, her tribe. I had my tribe of women, too, that often over-lapped as Kelly’s tribe, that were, are, supportive. Those women listened if I called, prayed for our family, and loved on us whether they were geographically close or afar. I would give them random updates in group emails on Kelly’s health so as not to have to explain to each one individually. I’m thankful for their supportive friendship in our lives. Kelly and I agreed that there were those people who we wanted them to know what was happening, those we knew would be praying for her. Other people, who didn’t actually need to know, were spared any dependence we may had put on them in their learning of her health battle.
Our major concern was that Kelly needed to focus her energy on getting well, not worrying about what others thought of her choices, and her feeling she had to defend her choice. It seemed to us, too, that the more people who’d know that she was sick could possibly be worse for her in the case of people sharing their “helpful tips” to “try working with so and so”, or outright tell her, “You need to see a qualified medical doctor”, which could cause her to second guess her choice of alternative doctors and healing modalities, all of which are “qualified”. The more voices speaking into her life could take her attention away, instead of focusing on her present daily health needs and trusting the guidance she was seeking and following. Bottom line, she needed her energy focused, not divided.
With all the bodily energy one uses in a given day, Kelly amazingly put forth the energy of a person being well in health most days. How could that be? I think a part of it was that she was not putting medications into her body to treat symptoms. Also, she was eating clean, untainted food, had fresh air and exercise daily, and so many other positive daily doings to uplift her instead of drain her. She was drinking lots of water and bone broth. Also, the supplements from her alternative health-care providers were fully natural (with no additives that would set-off her gluten sensitivity or some other negative response), boosting her body with nutrients and minerals that she’d been deficient of from probably the beginning of her lifetime in the womb as a fetus–that’s a subject for an entirely different day.
Since Kelly was putting good things into her body, and because she wanted to work and be of use, I believe those were big reasons as to why she was able to keep physically working during her illness. And thank God for that being possible, because she’d had probably gone into a deeper depression without a work to do. Putting her focus on someone else, helping them, was a blessing.
We are thankful for every blessing, and friends’ and families’ love.
(1) Christian Music singer and songwriter Laura Story, from her 2011 album “Blessings” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v= XQan9L3yXjc
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We hope you enjoyed this chapter reveal from “Your Life Your Choice Let the Healing Begin A JOURNEY OF DIS-EASE TO EASE Healing Holistically of Pancreatic Cancer”. You can order the soft cover book online starting Sept. 8, 2022. Also, the eBook version is online for sale already! We encourage anyone interested in reading our book to order the soft cover or the eBook today and tomorrow, or any future day at these sites:
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